My dear firstborn

Dear Rafeeq Aiman,

my intention in writing this blog is to capture your things that happened to you in our life :)

Yesterday, you took out one of  the album from the shelf. you flip the pages one by one with ayah at your side. and when one of the picture came out, the picture with three of us during hari raya clad in red clothes on sofa at the living room, 4 days after you were born, you pointed to the picture at the wall. The same picture, how smart are you! 2 years old and 4 months only, i am so proud of you my son!

Yesterday, ayah went to work. Leaving you, me and raihan in the house. i am tired. you watched tv all day long. yes my bad but i just need something to distract you. i am tired you following me around (even to the toilet!) so i took you to the playground. even though i reminded you couple of times not to play at the road, you still did. i am sorry i lost my temper and cubit you. i think when i am tired, i will loose my temper. i carried you back home straight away even though you screamed your heart out and keep saying "nak main buai". I am not sorry i prioritized your safety rather than your happiness. i hope ayah will be free this coming weekend and we will go somewhere you can run freely